Does anyone else feel that way? I mean, I love dressage. It fits my type A personality really well, but I lived on my stupid circle for 3 weeks straight (I believe it's actually called, "a stupid fucking circle." Just doing endless transitions. Shaking him off the bit. Feeling
like a failure. Keep going anyway. Being type A is probably WHY I can keep going.
I haven’t written anything lately because honestly, there’s
nothing to write about. I ordered Penn’s new double, but I’m having some sizing
issues so it’s not ready to be blog fodder yet. Other than that, I haven’t been
doing anything with him except schooling him and putting hours in the saddle
working on our homework from the lessons in my last post.
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| Maybe there's some self carriage out there? |
I’ve been diligently working on Penn’s self-carriage.
Walk/trot/walk/trot etc until the end of time. I’m sure we spend a lot of time
walking… but it’s so damn hard! I am also applying more leg than I ever have
before. Makes sense, I need to generate the energy for him to convert into
shoulder lift. When he doesn’t listen to one leg, I keep digging in with it (or
pony club kick it), and put a seatbone into it until he decides he’d rather leg
yield away from it. But it never, ever goes away until he responds.
I remember to apply my leg first. Double what I think I
actually need. I vibrate my hands. I make sure he stays on the bit. I vibrate
my hands some more. I check him for self-carriage by giving a hand away, then
giving the other away. I check for the topline of his neck to be blown up like
a balloon. I check that my shoulders are up and back and I’m sitting on my
tailbone.
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| Earning my bronze medal. Because at some point in my past, I didn't feel incompetent. |
On the bit. Hold yourself. On the bit. Hold yourself. Repeat
for eternity.
I am battling his ever shifting balance. Leg on. Put him
back on the bit. Leg on, sit on my tailbone, and vibrate the hands because he
fell on his shoulder and plowed down. Put him back on the bit.
The right lead canter broke almost immediately upon our
return home from lessons. Like, it was completely gone. It was alarming, but the ability to trot to the
right without flailing nonsense also disappeared at the same time, sooooo… tracking right was just screwed?
I’d
ask for the right lead and for him to sit and carry himself. He’d take two or
three strides and then do an awkward trot skip change to the left lead. Back to
walk, ask again. I eventually got fed up with that nonsense and double leg pony
club kicked him forward on the right lead. You can’t trot and change if you’re
hand galloping! That seemed to help a lot- it made my leg a bit more meaningful.
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| This was super fun. Why can't working on self carriage be this fun? |
It is such a SLOG. It isn’t fun for either of us. I feel
like I’m going to the gym every day and lifting the same 10 pound weight for a
half hour. No switching it up, just keep lifting it while waiting for it to get
easier.
On the bright side, before I started all of this, I was
panicking because I couldn’t do the 10m half circle to 10m half circle in 2-2
and 3-3 without him falling on his face or bulging or running off (or some
combination of those). I have slowly started adding that back, and he’s much
much better about it and has stopped flailing through it.
As much as I say this was a slog to get through, about 2 weeks into it, things starting looking up and we had more good in our rides than bad. By the end of week 3 (when it was time to go back for another round of lessons), I was actually happy and was having good rides that lasted about 20-25 minutes. Penn was rising to the occasion and trying so very hard. He's not always right or perfect, but he's giving 150% in every ride in the canter. I can feel the trot is going in the right direction to actually allow a good medium trot to develop.
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Maybe we'll get a few more of these tri-color ribbons this year?
We did OK at second and third last year without much self carriage.
Managed to get a champion at each level at some point at recognized shows we went to! |
In our last ride before lessons he was holding himself so well in the canter that I started mixing changes back in. The final set of changes I did went like this: tracking right on the circle, canter on the left lead. Flying change to the right lead (which he landed in a balanced canter!). Finish the circle, then go across the K-B diagonal and ask for the right to left change. Get that balanced and be straight on the next long wall, then for shits and giggles ask for the left to right change (which would change to the counter canter). He gave the 3rd change! He lasted a few strides before ending up in a heap when we hit the corner on his weaker lead in counter canter. But he got all the pats and love and we quit for the night. He tried so hard, gave zero sass, and had boring changes!
Next up, more lessons! Because that has become a goal, get down to visit GP Trainer more. I need more help these days since we're in new territory!
